Horrible Day

Today, 28th of April year 2010 is one of my most horrible day in my life.
If you did follow my blog, you will know that I am persuing my queen's guide this year. However, things got suck up.
At first I was told that everything was fine and I went ahead.
Then, few days ago, I was told that BSS will be held earlier this year so that means that I cannot do my BSS this year but I still can do it next year.
It has been 2 weeks since I really got my proper sleep and eat.
I think I had my gastric back.
I worked damn hard for the test(BAKP).
I really hope that I can become a queens.
Though I was sad for being unable to take my queens this year, I was like its ok la.
I can still do it next year ma.
After many many busy n hectic days, today it has some sort of coming to the end preparation before the camp.
I went to the orphanage for my 3 months service and so on so dat I can complete my service before due date.
Done with everything including the arrangements, suddenly I got a call my my district commisioner.
I was told that I CANNOT take my queens anymore.
The national training commisioner is not giving me the green light though the national chief commisioner did.
So, as conclusion I can no more be a queens guide.
All my hard work n hope has gone down to drain.
A huge dissapointment.
hmm......
I was offered another thing that is becoming the leftenan aka pemimpin muda for my school and also to get my warrant.
I accepted that offer due to my deep interest in guiding.

Thanks to all the guiders and teachers and students aka members and friends that willing to lend a helping hand during my journey.
I really appreciate it very much.
Thank you again expecially to Pn Chan, Penang state comissioner, Pn Lam, SPU district commissioner, Pn Hindon, my school ex co-curicular activities teacher, Pn Komala, SMKCBW guides teacher, Pn Chew, SMKCBW headmistress and to everyone that had helped me.


Then, got a call from one of my ex.
Again, this happened and my feeelings got mixed up again.
I tried to put ... away and I thought that I've made it.
hmmm...
I just hope that things will go my way since the faith had let me down so many times and each time is a very bad fall.

GOD!!! I AM CONFUSED!!!

A Current Hectic Life

There are lots of things to do nowadays.
For example?
hmm.... let me slowly describe it to you, readers.
I will put a day as example so that it will be easier to understand.


Last Friday( 19/4/21010) if I am not mistaken, I had a long day which I felt so short.
Basically, time is just not enough for me.
I hope that 1 day will eventually be one week, one week be one month and one month be one year.
Though it is impossible (of course I know) but I still somehow hope for it to happen.
Back to topic, I started the day with a lame morning - dragging myself out of bed at 6.30a.m. , jump in the bathroom and had a cold morning bath than go to the bus stop in front of my house and waited for the bus.
Once the bus reached the jetty, I stretch my legs and walk to the waiting area to wait for the ferry.
I am lucky as BEFORE I arrived, the ferry was there already.
Should I consider myself lucky for that incident?
The unlucky part is, I have to rush and run like mad people before the ferry goes off and I have to wait for another 15 minutes.
Reach the pier at island side and heads off to college.
Literature in English is B.....O....R....I....N....G......


After that I rush down to the office and told my Business Studies lecture that I am not going to attend the class today as I am having an important meeting later.
So, again, I rushed to the bust stop and back to pier.
Took a bus to KOMTAR (people told me that there is NO bus to the Girl Guide Association and he said I must go to KOMTAR).
Before reaching KOMTAR, the state commissioner called me and asked where am I as I am already late to meet her.
I told her that I am kinda lost and so so so sorry for the late.
She then told me to take any bus to Air itam.
hahax. Guess what?
Even the inormation counter doesn't help.
kekex.
Reached GGA at around 11.30a.m.


Then at around 12.30p.m, I rushed back to my secondary school as I will be having a meeting with the girl guides members there and I don't want to be late.
Reached school at around 1.30p.m.
That means that I still have about one hour.
Feeling hungry, I made a quick move to the school canteen behind the school hall.
Bought myself some foods and drink and sit myself on a bench provided.
The meeting started at 2.30p.m and ended around 4.30p.m.
After that, Pn Komala, one of the teacher advisor, Pn Lam, SPU district commissioner and I went into the principal's office to meet her.
Had a talk which ended about an hour later thanks to my younger sister for the resque.
Went back home right after that, had bath, dinner and went to my dreamland soon after brushing up.

Well,,, that is how my hectic day ends.
How about yours?

College Life

I had just started my A levels programme about a week ago.
I am doing my A levels at college PTPL Penang.
Well, doing A levels programme is not my first nor second nor third choice.
Obtaining a not good result is SPM(not as what I have expected) had made me made this decision.
Why?
The reason is simple.
Infact, it is very simple.
The course that I wanted to persue need much better result.
My result is basically enough for me to enrol in that programme.
However, to do well and obtain a scholarship, it will need way much better result.
Seeing this situation and after consulting here and there, I had decided to do A levels.
Here, I will have more time to think of what I wanted to do in future yet not wasting any much time thinking because here, I can get to know the subjects better.
Doing Form 6 is another option but I wouldn't want to do that as it takes up to two(2) years to complete.
A levels programme only takes around 6 months to 1 year.
Most probally I will be doing Law though.

Being here on the first day had made me felt like I am a standard one child who just wanted to enrol and know people.
Its so just awkward.
Years being with friends and suddenly a whole new environment is here again.
It sounds like Deja Vu I know.
Well, it is actually a deja vu.
The first and second day was orientation.
First day is totally a disaster.
Second day was sucks.
Third day is ok.
Fourth day is getting better.
Fifth day is fully of worried.
Sixth day is the same as first day.
Seventh day is okla.

Getting know people from a totally different background is not easy.
Its hard to speak out the first sentence but once it is spitted out, I believe everything will be fine.

About 4 days ago, I had received a call from the state commisioner, Pn. Chan, regarding to my application to take BAKP test.
She had asked my to type out a letter to the national commisioner to ask for permission as I am late to register for BAKP test referral to my age.
So, I did type put the letter yesterday.
I hope my appeal to take the test will be approve and thus, I will pass my Queen's Guides test though I still have A LOT of things to do.
Everything is in need of a rush now so lets JET UP!!!

OHYA!!! Is anyone's birthday approching or is it here already?
If yes, HAPPY BIRTHDAY(in advance).
Well, I just have the mood to wish everyone a happy birthday. hahahax.

*ps,
Miss S Y Lee, I know you miss me very much. I also miss you very much. Wether you believe what I had said the other day, its up to you. I know there is something catchy and I am not brave enough to tell you. Well, hope you can understand me and things can go by following our heart. Don't forget to tell me whenever we can have the same time to class k?

Miss Eykha, its ok to lose. You had tried your best and that is the most important thing. Don't worry and always be happy k? I will always be there for you. I have been counting down to wait for the weekend because that is the only time when we can really talk. Miss ya. Hope to see ya soon.